i am WFH/out sick today. i've been fighting something mild for a few days and the stupid flu shot from yesterday probably sent my body over the edge. a friend is bringing over wonton soup shortly so help feed this cold, so yay! sadly, my plans for awesome sushi and jaunting around in the city tonight will have to be rescheduled since i have a pretty full weekend ahead and it's more sensible to take it easy so that i can give my body the rest it needs to recover quickly.
other than being a sickie, life is moving along and it's becoming pretty swell. several life adjustments had to be made recently, some of which were extermely difficult and took a LOT of self-discipline but in the end i knew i had to do what was best for ME. i think i spent too much time worrying about what other ppl wanted, what other ppl thought, and how i could help THEM. i didn't stand behind my own values b/c i thought i was this all-powerful, influential, giving and caring person who had what it takes to make a difference in someone else's life and in the process, i somehow got myself caught up in an upside down, topsy-turvy world where nothing was quite what it seemed and one where i lost trust in myself and in others. that was probably the worst part; losing trust in myself. i didn't trust myself to communicate my desires and expectations effectively, i didn't trust that i was saying the right things, and i certainly didn't trust myself enough to have it in me to put my foot down and put the brakes on a (self) destructive cycle. with the support of a few key friends, old and new alike, i was able to pull through it and start 'normalizing' my life.
one day, i might write about what i've learned in the last year but it might not be anytime soon since i'm still trying to understand WTF it is i did learn, if anything.
i leave you with pics of 1) memo-holder robots that someone made/gave to me this week (robots, robots, robots!!!) and of 2) halloween w/ 'ass backwards'.
seriously, a guy coming out of a donkey's ass, d*cks in boxes and a banana pug (get it??!?!?! a BANANA-PUG!!!). too awesome.
... another sad day for us :(.
nothing much to say at the moment so here are a couple songs which are more 'uplifting' than this post (i meant to rave about these songs earlier in the week and am now realizing i won't be in the right mood to do so anytime soon) and a quote someone posted this morning on their FB.
".. and the air is thin
and it blows through your skin
and you feel like something
is about to begin.
and the walls spin
and you're paper-thin
from the haze of the smoke
and the mescaline ..."
Tuesday afternoon I dropped my new best friend at the airport. She's moving back East. This morning I dropped Him off as he and 39 other guys will be bicycling from SF to Redondo over the next 5 days. I'm so proud of Him, but I really miss Him.
In His absence I am determined to do the following - work out, clean my apartment, clean His apartment (boys are dirty), do laundry. I have plans mostly all day Saturday. I'd really like to rest since I've been out doing "farewell new best friend" activities for the past 2 weeks. I'm pooped!
Today I just wanted to stay home and sleep. But I came into work, I'm getting stuff done and I'm eating pizza (a counter measure for my big workout at home tonight).
I hope everyone's doing well. Sorry my dating updates are boring.
Go forth and fill your libraries with media.
Seriously, thanks to everyone for being so amazing and patient. You are the reason I love Vox.
A transformer down the street blew out after catching on fire and power went out completely. We had 5 outages thru the morning but this one literally put us out on the street, complete with a campus-wide evacuation notice.
I sent the entire team home even before the evac notice, now am just laying around watching tellie and cleaning up the apt. Wish I just took the day off or had gone to the beach!
Kill me now and put me out of this misery- I actually find these kids adorable.
/Taken at yesterday's campus party./
Btw, it was almost impossible taking a picture of kids yesterday, they were bouncing off the walls from the sugar overload our company provided. I've never seen so much cotton candy around.
Wow, there is SO MUCH sugar flying around the office these days :(. Today I need to pick up ice cream for someone's bday surprise, there's a campud Halloween celebration where I'm sure cookies/candy/cake will be aplenty, yesterday we got a truckload of dove ice cream bars for our giving/charity campign and now I just found out on fb that someone has macaroons from France (must. eat. this) and she is willing to share one with me but "not with anyone else."
Weekend plans: get hair "did", two partays, maze/haunted house in a corn field, embark on quest for tomy "sunshine buddies" and just some good old fashioned errands. I sense fun times ahead.
I was just told that the Amazon Conduit will be fixed by tomorrow. I will post here as soon as I get word that it's back up and running.
I know this has been frustrating and I am sorry there wasn't more I could do to make it less so. I really appreciate your patience though.
Cheers,
one hint...
i'm making it with foamboard and so far, this is what i've got. i hope it doesn't turn out lame!
A week ago, we stopped by a pumpkin patch with Kylie and THK got us three mini pumpkins. His was the largest, about the height of a coke can. Ky's pumpkin is teenytiny. I spent all last night carving these... next year, we're getting regular full sized ones!
